“Speechless”

I stood there speechless, like a statue…frozen in time. Hundreds of people were waiting for the next words out of my mouth, others watching live online were also waiting to see what I would say. Those who know me have seen this before and waited with anticipation, others watching for the first time were puzzled and felt the tension of the moment rise. What was happening? As a public speaker– a preacher to be more exact — I was having one of those God moments where I am saying what I had prepared to say while hearing God speak to my heart a deeper revelation in real time. This creates a tension where two truths compete for my mind and my mouth just stops. You can watch it happen at 39:36 of this video clip (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnz8loXEA5A&t=2376s).

I was preaching on the need for people to serve one another and how God intentionally made us incomplete so that we would need to live in community. Paul describes in his first letter to the Corinthians that each Christian is a part of the body of Christ. Some are the eye and some are the ear and we all belong to the body. We are diverse in our gifts but we are all needed for the body to function. Yet some who profess to know Jesus, choose to do life away from the body of Christ. As I am trying to describe the need that the eye has to be connected to the body and the need the body has for the eye, the Lord just whispers to my heart this question, “Do you know how to tell if you are connected adequately to the body of Christ?” I said, “No”. He said, “If people confess their sins to you, and you confess your sins to them you are relationally connected to the body and people trust you.”

James 5: 16 Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working. ESV

In our human bodies, Red blood cells start at the heart. They then travel to the lungs to pick up oxygen. The red blood cells then go back to the heart where they are forcefully pushed throughout the body. Six thousand miles of blood vessels link every cell. The red blood cells travel down large highways, then one-lane streets, trails and small paths. As they deposit their nutrients they also pick up waste (mainly carbon dioxide) from each individual cell. From here they are directed to the kidneys for a thorough cleaning then back to the lungs for another trip. The longest trip from the heart to the big toe last only 20 seconds. The average red blood cell makes a half million round trips over a period of 4 months. On the final trip the red blood cell is directed to the spleen where it is stripped bare and recycled into new cells. Red blood cells are a good picture of the body of Christ. We are called to be so connected that we have the breath of life in us and we also are willing to take away other’s refuse – our sin, guilt and shame for one another. We can only do that in community.

Here is an examination of my “public moment of silence”. I am trying to articulate the truth I have written in my notes. As I am dispensing what I already know, Papa jumps in and drops a revelation on the same subject, but at a level deeper than I had previously known. I believe He speaks to me like this for two reasons. First, I am being faithful with the understanding I already have, so He gives me more. Secondly, He downloads revelation to me as I am speaking so that my Spirit has to catch it, not my mind. In that moment, my Spirit bears witness to what He is saying and my brain has only seconds to “fact check” the revelation through the Old and New Testament. When I declare the truth out loud, I listen as the Spirit of God, in the audience, gasps or says “amen” or says, “say that again”. It is a monumental moment as the Spirit in the listener bears witness to the Spirit in the speaker.

When this “in the moment” revelation comes, there is not a lot of room to ponder it before I speak it. I am a little anxious, unsure about what I am about to say but it has happened to me enough that I know it is Papa and I can trust what He is doing.   

What about you?  Do you ever feel like God just drops something on you without any warning?   How do you know it’s Him? Is it exciting, surprising, anxiety producing? I think all of those are normal feelings and we are encouraged in scripture to not be anxious about what we will say, because the Spirit will speak through us, if we let Him. Here is that passage:

Matthew 10: 19-20: When they deliver you over, do not be anxious how you are to speak or what you are to say, for what you are to say will be given to you in that hour. 20 For it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you. ESV

Verse 20 says, “what you are to say will be given to you in that hour.” Some things Holy Spirit wants to say will not be known ahead of time. You may feel awkward or unsure of yourself but that is the way He moves. Trust Him. He who gave you the revelation you wrote on paper is also the one who writes revelation on our hearts. Leave me a comment and let me know how this happens to you.

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